Archive for February, 2019

Dear Friend

Tuesday, February 19th, 2019

A couple of evenings ago I received a call form an old friend from my past.  He and I were, well First Loves.  You always remember your first love.  Hopefully it is a precious memory for you, it was or is for me.  He is a good person.  Anyway, I had not heard from him in a long time and when I recognized the number on my phone, I was expecting to hear good news of his life with his family for he has a great love of his family, and he would bring me up to date.  After only a few moments, I could tell that this was not a happy call.  His adult son had died a few months ago and he was in grieving pain.  My thoughts of love reached out to him and I just listened to him.

 I let him talk without much interruption and I could tell he was terribly distressed.  Thoughts of “Why” were raging through his thoughts.  “Why not me instead of him, he is younger and has a family, I’m older…” Why him?  He was a good person” Why, why, why. 

He was angry, not even sure who or what he was angry.  He had no energy, he was truly mourning. He also was at a loss on how to help his beloved wife.

After a few minutes he asked me how I made it, knowing I too had lost an adult child just a very few years ago.  I was still listening but listening to God on what words to express.  Finally, I confessed I had had many of the same feelings and thoughts that he had expressed.  He asked me again, how I did it and I replied, it was God.  I couldn’t have made it without God.  He wasn’t sure he believed in God and after a few moments, we discontinued the call.

I sat there praying to God for the right words and thinking of things I could have said or should have said.  You know that feeling.  I should have said this or that, but I didn’t.

I realized that some of the conversation had reminded me of the pain I had suffered, and the seeming loss and it brought a tear or two when thinking of my daughter.  I was determined not to go backwards as I had had a lovely healing and expressed it in an article in the Christian Science Sentinel “Feeling the comfort and care of divine Love” (August 2019, 2016)

I have no way of contacting him, he has always been the one to contact me so forgive me, but I am going to use today’s blog to reach out and maybe it can help you.  That is my wish.

My dear Friend,

I am so sorry I could not seem to answer some of your questions and after hanging up many things come to thought.

I want to start with God is Love.  God is All .  God is Your Father, as we say “Our Father which art in heaven…”  God is ever present and there is no place or time that you are separated from God.   Psalms 91 affirms “He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most Hight shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.”    God is your son’s Father too.  God is with him at all times too.  He cannot go to a place where God is not.  Where is this place?  Well in searching for this place I find it is in my thinking, my consciousness.  That is where I abide with God.   It is impossible to separate God from his Children.  Impossible.

In continuing with our Psalms, “I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.”   Do I really trust him, or do I trust what others may say or think.  What can I trust that is stronger than God?  I can’t.  I’m impelled to trust in Him.

In mourning I am thinking only of myself, not caring about anyone or anything else.  This is in truth a kind of selfishness.

I have admitted in the past that this is my journey.  In my journey my daughter was a big part of it, but she has her journey and it is no longer where I can see it, but I trust God.  I trust God that her Journey is continuing with Him as her Father-Mother God and claiming her abiding place with the Most High.  Would I want to interfere with her Journey with God?  I don’t think so. 

A long time ago, a wise woman told me if you really loved someone, let them go.  Let them go, is sometimes the hardest thing to do. 

So my friend, you have to let him go.  You love him, let him go.  Let his journey continue with God his Father, Your Father.  Trust that his journey is with God and that he is experiencing that eternal Life we have been promised.  Rejoice that He is with his Father and continuing onward and upward. 

None of the memories you have of your son can be lost or taken away, they are with you forever and will comfort you especially in your feeling of such loss. In fact these memories will comfort you and bring you peace. 

One day, you will hear a song, or see a picture, or feel something and you will think of him and you will smile.  I promise you this will happen.  Maybe not today or tomorrow but soon. 

Let this grief lift off you like the fog that diminishes when the sunshine appears.  For as you see your Son is on his Journey and is with God, then the grief will lift.  As I expressed this in my article:

“Divine Love is with me and comforts me.  I held on to this thought day and night for several days.  I began to see more clearly that God really is Love and that this God, or Love, had never left me comfortless and never leave any of us comfortless.  I was then led to study what the Bible says about man.  The first chapter o Genesis states:  “And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness:…So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he  him; male and female created he them: (Verses 26, 27).

I realized that this identity was my daughter’s true self.  It is the spiritual reality of all of us, made in God’s perfect likeness.  This spiritual identity could never die or disappear.  Even though I could no longer see my daughter materially, I realized that she was still held in Love’s care.  I could continue to prayerfully hold to this truth for her and me.

Soon the darkness in my thought disappeared.  I had a freer step, and the sense of mourning lifted….”

My dear friend, may you find this peace for yourself.  God is with you.  God loves you.

Lovingly

Me

Let your Light Shine

Friday, February 8th, 2019

How well we know this Scripture in Matthew and part of our Lord’s Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 5) Jesus says that “Ye are are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.” and “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”

So what have I done to let my light so shine ? First I have to decide do I want to do good or do I want to be ugly? I think I want to be good. It is easy to listen to the radio or TV and hear all of the bad going on in all of the world. You could even become a little depressed about it and become a “Debbie Downer” on all things in your life. We can be so down that we can make others not want to be around us. But is that what I want? No. So I want to be more positive, and how better to be positive than to see God’s goodness all around me. For instance it is bitter cold outside right now, but the sun is shinning in my office window and I feel the warmth of it’s rays and it makes me smile. I have to iron, and I hate to iron, but instead it is a precious time that I can listen to and sign hymns that I love. The more joy I can experience, the happier I will be and this cannot help but to be more apparent to others around me…..so that in a small way is letting my light shine.

In taking time to pray each day I ask God how I can help others? What ways can I be the good neighbor? One way I feel I am being a good neighbor is to know that God is my Father, our Father and we are all His Children, brothers and sisters. That God created us in His image and likeness and that likeness was Good and that is the only way I am going to see anyone I am in contact this day, whether in person or by phone, or text, or Facebook. That image is not sickly, poor, suffering or mean. Even if I do not agree with that person, I will love that person and know that he also is a child of God.

How about you? How are you shining today?